Below are the 10 most recent journal entries recorded in Julia's LiveJournal:

Monday, April 23rd, 2001
1:44 pm	Classes on a day like today? That's inhumane!!!!!!!! Current Mood: happy Current Music: I'm Like a Bird - Nellie Furtado (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, April 3rd, 2001
8:39 pm	Four months... rose1625: its the third - four months JiMboSaX: dammit!!!! rose1625: what? JiMboSaX: i forgot to say it to you JiMboSaX: im sorry hun! rose1625: its ok JiMboSaX: i have it written and everything rose1625: you do? rose1625: where? JiMboSaX: yes!! JiMboSaX: in my planner rose1625: haha, thats sweet JiMboSaX: hehe, i try rose1625: ok, homework, no more mushiness JiMboSaX: well its been a wonderful 4 months JiMboSaX: love you!! JiMboSaX: :0) rose1625: yes it has rose1625: love you too JiMboSaX: ttyl sweetie rose1625: bye hun That's more like it. Current Mood: content Current Music: The Gods Love Nubia - from "Aida" (Comment on this)
1:41 pm	Yay for dumbsticks!!! I just listened to a voice message from him. He asked me to join him for lunch, which I couldn't because he called an hour ago, and said that his day was going to be busy but he'd try to stop by or he'd see me tonight. Then he said it. He said "love you". I feel like this giant black cloud has been lifted from above my head, a big weight has been lifted from my heart. I never thought a boy would have this effect on me, but strangely enough he does. I always made fun of the "girlfriends", but now I understand - how one person can affect me like this, where I need to hear those three words everyday or I can't sleep at night (which sucks when you have to get up at 6:30 to register for classes, trust me!) Thanks to Jill and Kristen for their open ears and their advice and to all my Fordham chicas. It's so nice for Jill, Kristen and Ito have boys at the same time for the first time. It's fun reading their stories and sharing mine. My favorite part is the advice and support we give to each other, it's great to have such wonderful friends! Current Mood: loved Current Music: Christmas Song - DMB (2 Comments |Comment on this)
10:47 am	Dumbsticks... Recently my boyfriend lodged his head up his ass and I don't kow how to remove it. I don't konw if I'm being paranoid or what but he still hasn't said "I love you" and you would assume that it's not that big a deal but he always says it-EVERYDAY!!!! And he always says it first. It's always "good night, MUWAH, love you", everynight before bed, even when we were on break in New Hampshire and Staten Island, he still said it. The fact that he's not saying it now worries me. Last night he just said "good night" when we got off the phone-no kiss, no love. So I called him back and gave him a kiss over the phone. He didn't return it but appreciated it. Still no love. After I hung up, Janet told me to just say it first. She wanted to live vicariously through me. I called him and told him that I hadn't said it for awhile and so "I love you", he chuckled and said "ok". NOTHING!!!! NO LOVE YOU TOO!!! Am I being paranoid. Does anybody out there see what I see? Am I going crazy? I'm going to talk to him tomorrow about it. I'm sleeping over like I do every Wednesday night. I'm more concerned about tonight though. Today is our four month anniversary. I probably won't see him today, so he'll call me tonight. If he doesn't say it today, on our anniversary, then something is definitely wrong. Why do boys have dumbsticks, and moreover, why do they think with them instead of their real brains?? Current Mood: frustrated Current Music: Southside - Moby and Gwen Stefani (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, April 1st, 2001
11:06 pm	Happy April Fool's Day!! Today was my choir concert. It went well. Glad to be done though. Somehow I got elected secretary of choir so now I can't quit, which kind of sucks for me. James came. We're good again. Last night I got "The Sting" from the library and brought it over. I didn't kiss him hello or anything. We put in the movie and instead of lying down with him and cuddling, which is what we usually do when we watch stuff together, I just sat on the edge of the bed. For some reason I just wanted him to make the first move to have me lie down with him. I wanted to be reassured that everything was okay again. When he noticed that I wasn't lying down, he asked me why I wasn't. When I told him I just didn't feel like it, he put his hand on my knee. That was the moment that I knew he wasn't angry with me anymore. After a few minutes, I lay down with him. When I saw that he was falling asleep during the movie I decided to test him one more time. I insisted that he go to sleep. And he, assuming that I would be staying the night, said no because he felt bad that I wasn't tired. I told him I would just go back to my room and he could go to sleep. He said no, that he wanted me to stay the night with him - he passed the test! I was so glad to sleep with him again. It had been over a week since I had slept over and it felt like a year. Although he didn't say "I love you" before we went to sleep, I'm not worried because he immediately folded me into his arms just like always and I knew that he loved me and I didn't have to hear it. Current Mood: relieved Current Music: the ticking of Janet's f-ing clock (Comment on this)
Saturday, March 31st, 2001
2:37 pm	Fixed? James finally imed me. We small-talked about my choir rehearsal. Then he imed me, "listen, the e-mail wasn't necessary, but i appreciates it. small things like this just annoy me sometimes and sometimes they don't" What the fuck does that mean? It was vague but at least I knew he wasn't still mad at me. We made plans to watch a movie together tonight so we'll see how it goes. Current Mood: anxious Current Music: Cello Suite 1 - YoYo Ma (Comment on this)
1:49 pm	Drinking is bad! Last night, one of my choir friend's asked me to come out with her and some drama kids to Tinker's Bar. Even though we had a four hour rehearsal today that started at 9:30, I said ok. She said she would pick me up at 11:30, this was at 7:30, so obviously I had some time to kill. My friend Loni came down to room around 9:00 with a glass in her hand. The glass contained Mudslide, and who am I to turn down a Mudslide. Within half an hour, I had had two big glasses, and was feeling GOOD! I wanted to call James to ask him how his night was going - he had gone to a show in the city with one of his friends from home. I tried calling a bunch of times and couldn't reach him. I also had another drink. I finally got hold of him while I was in Loni's room with her, Julia, Ed, Gaspare, and G's friend Rick. It was loud in the rrom so I had to talk louder. He immediately accused me of being drunk, which I was, but only a little. He sounded a bit annoyed, but not too much. After I got off the phone with him I stopped drinking and decided to not go out. I called him later when he got back on campus after midnight and he told me that he was going to bed and said good night. For the first time in almost a month he didn't say "I love you" before he hung up the phone. I could tell something was wrong. This morning I went to caf for breakfast, realized they didn't open for another two hours, and went to see James in the RamVan office. He was on the phone when I came in so he didn't say hi at first. When he did get off the phone he wasn't very talkative. I asked about his night and then told him about my night. When I told him that I had drunk he said, "I know that, you called me drunk". I apologized for it but he said that he was annoyed because the day before I had jokingly told him not to call me if he was drunk. And then I did it to him. He was also pissed because Loni had called him when she was trashed and left this random voice mail. I apologized for that too but I don't know if we're okay. Maybe he was just tired or whatever, I haven't talked to him since then. I wrote him an e-mail explaining my actions, I hope he's read it. He just signed on-line and he hasn't said hi yet. Oh well, I bet I'm over-reacting. Hopefully I am. Current Mood: worried Current Music: Ghetto Superstar (Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 27th, 2001
6:35 pm	Midterm Grades Today I got my midterm grades and surprisingly enough I received an A in chemistry, of course it's chemistry of art, but still, there are atoms and shit involved. My other grades were good as well which makes me EXTREMELY happy. It's good to know that I can do this whole college thing and I won't end up working at Golick's Dairy Bar for the rest of my life. Everything else is fine here in the Bronx. At tutoring today, I was a little hard on Charles and I feel bad for that. It's just that I get frustrated because he gets distracted so easily. Oh well, I just need to find more patience with him. Well I have to go study for a chem test, I want to keep that A. Current Mood: tired Current Music: The Water Is Wide - Indigo Girls, Sarah McLaughlin, & Jewel (Comment on this)
Sunday, March 25th, 2001
1:00 pm	Phantom! Yesterday was an amazing day! I woke up in my boyfriend's arms, a great way to start the day. After a brief Carnegie Hall choir rehearsal, the only blah part of the day, I showered, got dressed, met James and took the RamVan into Manhattan. We walked down to the Majesetic Theater and met my friend Katherine from high school. Her aunt was playing Christine in Phantom on Broadway and had gotten us box seats for the matinee. The show was so great. After the show we went backstage and met up with her Aunt Lisa and she gave us a tour of the backstage and showed us the the hair room, costumes, all the technical stuff. It was so cool. We then left the theater and met up with some of James' friends and went out for dinner at a Mexican restaurant. We walked back to Times Square after, where it was WICKED windy and cold. We were meeting back up with Aunt Lisa but had a while so we walked around in the freezing cold. We went back to the theater and then Aunt Lisa took us to the View Restaurant and Lounge on top of the Marriot Marquis, a revoloving reastaurant. It was amazing, the view was gorgeous. Aunt Lisa treated us and we all just sat around and talked, she was very fun to talk to. After drinks we went to stand in the cab line. We stood for half an hour in the freezing, windy cold and all these sketchy cabbie people came up to us. We finally got a cab and said good-bye to Aunt Lisa, who said to call her and we would all hang out sometime - she is so cool!! We got back to Lincoln Center and got on the RamVan. A drunk got on the van and luckily enough, sat next to me, I thought James was going to punch the guy. I, on the other hand, was thoroughly entertained by the idiot. We got back to campus and I was able to get by the guard in his dorm. We went to bed as soon as we got in his room. I ended the day the same way I started, in his arms. It was such a great day and I'm so glad I got to share it with James, Katherine, and Devin. Current Mood: content Current Music: Like a Bird - K.C. and JoJo (on the radio) (Comment on this)
Friday, March 23rd, 2001
1:14 pm	The Beginning... I have enjoyed reading my friends journal entries so I thought it was time that I put my inner workings down as well. At this point of my life, I don't have much to complain about. I have a wonderful family that loves me and friends whom I love as sisters (you know who you are) and brothers. I go to a prestigious university and have more than a clue about what I want to do after graduation. And for the first time in my life there is a boy whom I care about that actually returns the feeling. I recently have been asking myself, "Why am I so lucky right now to have all of these wonderful people in my life?" I think it's because I suffered through puberty with braces, acne, and a weight problem. This is God making up for those embarassing times. I never knew that I could be this happy or content with my life, so right now I am going to thank those who are part of it. Thanks to my family for putting up with my sketchiness. Thanks to Kristen for listening and answering all my "questions". Thanks to the Fabulous Four/Five for all the good times. Thanks to Janet for being the best roommate a girl could ask for. Thanks to Loni and the FU Band for being my first friends at college. And thanks to James for making me feel like an actual member of the female species and making me so happy everyday. I am a very lucky girl. Current Mood: lucky Current Music: Piece of My Heart - Janis Joplin (Comment on this)